Today was one of the best days for me in our conversation. I really enjoyed it, the way you openly expressed everything just felt so nice. :)

Thank you for that! :)

Here's something I wanted to say -

I really like you, Saumya! :)

There's the rarest chance this feeling will change. My first email was purely based on initial attraction and intuition.

But once we started interacting more, my respect and affection for you have only grown.

Honestly, it still feels like a dream sometimes, how things have unfolded. It's really beautiful, and I'm so grateful for it. :)

But yaar, I don't want to rush things. I seriously don't want to mess this up.

Other than work, I have only been thinking about two things over the last few weeks:

1. How I can make this relationship work

2. Relocation to the UAE

These two are the most important things in my life right now, and trust me, both are very tough decisions.

I don't want to take any risky step that pulls me away from this and then regret it for the rest of my life.

I'm someone who overthinks a lot. Before sending you any message, I make sure it doesn't make you uncomfortable in any way. I re-read it to ensure it conveys exactly what I want to say.

Once, I sent a message in a hurry and forgot to remove one sentence, you pointed that out. And when you didn't reply afterward, I genuinely got scared, thinking I might have said something wrong.

I don't want anything casual. I have never been interested in that. I will keep trying until the last 1% chance remains that something meaningful and long-term is possible.

Also, I want to be very honest here about 1 thing -

I don't care about looks. I don't know how you look, and honestly, there's 0% chance that if and when we meet, my view about you will change. I just know how smart you are, and that's what drew me closer. That's what ONLY matters to me.

But yes, I'm practical. And being practical sometimes leads to difficult thoughts. I honestly don't know what you think about me. I know you have been through a lot of tough times, especially in relationships, and I don't want to push you for any answers. I really like how calmly and thoughtfully you reply to all the emails, it genuinely feels nice. :)

Just because I believe in something doesn't mean I expect the same from the other person. I'm no one to judge if someone considers looks as a factor when they see or get to know someone. I'm not pointing this at you, just saying in general.

(Also, not saying I look bad. I just really love myself for who I am today. Not flexing, I don’t have anything to flex :P But I’m just a bit confident about my actions.)

So yes, I just wanted to be honest and share what I have been thinking lately.

Good night. Sweet dreams. (Daily bolne se kbi to acha dream ayga hi na :P)