Hi Saumya,
I hope you are doing well.
Okay… yes, another long-ish message. But I promise - this is the last one. :)
Past few days (14 to be precise: 21st May, 2025 - 3rd June, 2025) have been a mix of emotions. A little wild, a lot of overthinking, and somewhere in between - some pride and a little embarrassment too.
Screenshot from my Journal App - 21st May, 2025
If I had to sum up how I have felt: it's been mostly good, but with a few "Mmm, maybe I shouldn't have done that?" moments.
I know you might have had a lot of questions after reading my email - especially after the part about how I found your email and those pictures. And maybe that made you uncomfortable, frustrated, and even angry.
If it did, I truly understand.
So I just wanted to explain a few things, not to prove that everything I did was 100% right (I know it wasn't), but just to give you a little context.
I have written down 5 questions - some that you might be wondering, and a couple I just want to say out loud.
So… let's start.
Who TF is this Vishal Thakur? How can I trust this random person on the internet? What are his intentions? Is it safe to even reply to this person? How can he just look up my profiles and use personal pictures?
I completely understand this. I know, you must have had a lot of similar questions in your mind. I'll try my best to answer all of them honestly.
→ Who is Vishal Thakur?
A Designer who works remotely.
Someone who spends most of his time in front of a laptop screen.
Favourite part of the day is when I walk to the gym with my playlist on, document my day, write random thoughts, and then return home with a bit of a satisfied feeling.
That's 80% of my life. Simple and a bit ambitious. I love myself a lot and genuinely enjoy how I live.
→ How can I trust this random person on the internet?
Honestly, you can't trust any random person online - and I get that. Even I wouldn't know how to trust someone easily.
Only thing that works sometimes is instinct. If it feels right, you can try. If not, it's completely okay to ignore.
Even when I saw your profile, I don't know why - but my instinct said something positive. You felt calm, sincere, and mature. That's the only reason I took this step.
→ How can he just stalk all my profiles and use personal pictures?
I accept this part - I shouldn't have done that. Especially when messaging someone for the first time.
Yes, I checked your profiles. And yes, I used your pictures just to make the website look more personal and not too plain. But when I read that email again with a fresh mind, I realised - it's not something anyone would enjoy reading. It clearly felt like an invasion of privacy.
Even though I didn't have any bad intentions, it still crossed a line. I could have done that differently. I have removed all your photos from that page.
I'm really sorry about that.
"You said you have never done this before… but how can I trust that? This could have been sent to anyone."
I agree with this part. It does sound like the easiest way to reach out to someone and grab their attention. And honestly, being a designer, the effort to make a website isn't as much as it might seem.
But I would still like to explain this by giving some background about my dating life.
I created my Hinge account just few days ago before I liked your LinkedIn wala prompt.
I have used other dating apps in the past too, but honestly, never for more than 2–3 days. I have had zero matches - literally zero. I get bored very easily on those apps because they drain all my mental energy, so I just uninstall them.
Now coming to the relationship side…
I have only been in 1 relationship in the past. It lasted for about 2.5 years and ended in 2015.
So yes, I have been single for almost a decade. And to be honest, I have never even tried approaching anyone in all these years - just didn't feel like it.
This is the first time in so many years that I have expressed my feelings in such detail.
So yes, the simple answer: I haven’t written something like this to anyone before. :)
Not sure if you had this question while reading the website - but I mentioned more than once that there's one person I truly admire and someone who's very special to me. I wanted to talk about that person here.
Whatever I am today - the way I think, the way I do things, the reason why I do certain things - it's all because of one person.
That is Virat Kohli.
No, I'm not just another typical Virat Kohli fan. It's different. Very different
I have told this to so many people: "I'm ready to lose everything I have in life if someone can prove they are a bigger Virat Kohli fan than me." (Yes, I'm serious.)
If you are curious to know why I love him so much, you can read more here:
- How Virat Kohli Became My Role Model
- It's just a retirement… Right?
(Yes, he's the only other person I have written so much about. :P)
Now, one very stupid thing I want to share - you can ignore this! :)
When I saw your email ID, I had a very unique instant reaction.
Your Email ID
My Reaction
P.S. I know, it's a very bad joke but ese hi felt like sharing this. :P
But jokes aside. Honestly, he's everything to me: a mentor, a brother, a friend, a role model, a dream… just everything.
I wouldn't be the person I am today without him.
Why do you talk so much?
I know you must have felt that while reading all of this.
So first of all - sorry for this loooong message.
And you probably won't believe it…
I don't talk this much in real life.
Just to give you context - the number of words I have written in these two messages… I may not have spoken that many words in all of 2025 so far.
Yes, I'm that SHAANT kind of a person.
I always joke that if there was a world championship for being introverted and staying silent - I would win gold. I'm really good at that. :P
Jokes aside. I feel most people want to express a lot… but end up suppressing it. This was just me, trying to not suppress it this time.
And you also mentioned in your bio - "Fascinated by people & psychology"
So I thought maybe, you would enjoy this conversation in a bit more detail. :)
Why suddenly today - 3rd June, 2025?
Today's an emotional day for me. A happy one.
It's hard to explain, but as a fan who has waited 18 years… today felt worth it.
There's this quiet, satisfying feeling - like something you have believed in for so long finally happened. :)
It just felt like - even when you give more than 100% and still don't win, it means something much better is waiting in the future. This victory feels like that. And honestly, that's what life is. We just have to be patient enough to experience the sweetest wins in life.
Enough gyan for now! :P
So, yes maybe not the perfect time to write something like this -
but I just thought… maybe, just maybe, it could be my lucky day too.
Even if there's a 1% chance of hearing back from you - that would be special.
And if not, I would still close this chapter with a full heart and a smile.
No regrets. Just… gratitude. And love.
Final Thoughts/Last Words
So… this isn't a question, just some final thoughts I wanted to share.
First of all, thank you. ✨
Thank you for your time. Thank you for being kind. And thank you for understanding this so well.
I don't know if anything I said above was even relevant or meant something to you, but saying it out loud helped me. It felt like a little weight lifted.
Last few days after I sent that email - especially the second one, were filled with a lot of self-doubt and embarrassment.
100s of thoughts running through my head…
- Did I cross a line?
- Was I being too much?
- Should I have written something else?
- And yes - refreshing Gmail every hour just to check for a reply. (Even I'm human too. :P)
But honestly, this whole experience will still remain one of the sweetest chapters of my life.
It didn't end with the result I hoped for, but it gave me so much more than I expected.
This was probably one of the riskiest, most out of comfort things I have ever done.
Sending that first website mail, knowing how it could backfire - was scary. And for 2 days, when there was no reply, I thought I messed it all up.
But then your response came. And it really, really meant something.
It taught me that if your intentions are good and your instincts feel right - you should always try. Whether it's about people, career, or life.
There's either a good outcome or a meaningful lesson on the other side. And both help you grow.
Your 2 replies were the highlights of this whole story. And for that, I'll always be thankful.
I'm genuinely sorry if anything I did felt uncomfortable.
I crossed a line while trying to be creative, and I accept that mistake.
But please don't remember me as "that creepy stalker guy".
If anything - remember me as an ambitious designer… and a huge Virat Kohli fan!
That'll be enough.
Chalo, bye now. :)
Just 1 more thing - If you ever want to reach out about anything in life you can message me directly.
I think, we don't need the anonymous email anymore. :P
Here are my details:
WhatsApp: +91-9823110336
LinkedIn | Twitter (X) | Instagram
It's a small and beautiful world. Maybe our paths will cross again someday.
Until then - good luck with everything you do. Keep smiling. You are truly beautiful. ✨✨
And, YOU will be the sweetest stranger I have spoken to - without ever actually meeting. And that's something I'll always smile about. :)
Pakka wala bye now. :P
No more stalking. Promise. :)
Thanks,
Vishal Thakur
(Your weird, quiet admirer)
I just want to end this with a video ad I saw recently.
I know I have already shared a lot of similar videos and reels - and maybe you have seen enough of them by now.
But this one really stayed with me.
Not because it's grand or different, but because it's exactly the kind of life I have always imagined for myself.
From the place… to the vibe… to the kind of bond they share - this is the dream I work toward every day.
Over the years, it took me a lot to reach this mental space - where I feel a bit more stable, a bit more grateful, and also clear about what I want to do next.
And this video, in its own small way, mirrors that dream.
Just thought of ending with it, because it felt right. :)